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MR. FEAR
04:30
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Down in the schoolyard, leather tough and looking hard, man I got to get me a gun....
Down in the car park, I ain't walking after dark, man I got to get me a gun....
There in the work place, I don't dig the bosses face, man I got to get me a gun,
There in the subway station, where's my token confrontation? Man I got to get me a gun!
Mr. Fear...comin' round here...
Tricky and the T.V. ways, cloud your mind with what he says, man I got to get me a gun...
Dealin' lies and dealin' hate, low common denominate, man I got to get me a gun...
load up and you're double girth, lose the feeling you've no worth, man I got to get me a gun...
Mr. Fear and his designs keep on workin' overtime, man I got to get me a gun...
Look into the mirror, surly there's a fear there pushing and whsiperin' it's lies and deceit it's gonna cheat you of your dignity blind you to humanity, in your lonely hour it will shower you with talk of power, where does it lie? In a book? In your mind? with the ability to rise from where your life's defined...well no you say, take up the coward's way, it is a gun and I'm embarrassed to say that anyone can fall prey...
Mr.Fear when you come here, Mr.Fear I'm ashamed...
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NO DELAYS
03:35
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I'll be back in heaven when next Thursday's coming, I'll be bumming 'til then. Get me to the airport or the trainstop mister, I will kiss her again. No Delays! 6 more days!
Seems like I'm surrounded by a velvet painting, toured with Satan and cursed. Hard to be believin' that they take it serious, makes me furious or worse. Cleanse my soul, take control...
And there's one thing won't leave me, I'm hearin' whispers of advice
And no they won't deceive me, I'm making desperate to be nice.
Got the smell of death and rigor mortis setting,I'm regretting my sins.
Surely in a past life I offended something, he ain't letting me win.
Move clock hands, no demands.
And there's one thing won't leave me, I'm hearing whispers of advice.
And no they won't deceive me, I'm making desperate to be nice.
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THE VINES
04:15
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I had moved South to a new state, pawned my guitar to get there. Slept on the floor of a friend of a friend. I got a temp job, government work. I know it was weeding but they gave it a glorified title: Foliage Reconciliation.4:30AM a field truck picks up 60 of us, men and woman, the sky is hot and dark, the air thick as damp pepper. A two hour ride to the work place, a blazing sun rises, men strip their shirts, someone sings.....
We enter what appears to be a tunnel, pitch black and sauna temperature. After riding 40 miles I see through the steam of the truck's headlights we're on a road in a dense jungle of vines. Massive, tangled, thick as sleeping snakes some 30 stories high blocking the sun, the stilled arteries of a giant beast. At the campsite we're issued overalls and cutting tools, the blades are rusty and broken. A whistle blast, 7:00 AM, we work by the light of flares hacking at vines, no one talks, I attempt a joke:"I think I'm going to be sickle". No one laughs. Blades whip the air gouging at bark, weeks will pass, lift, cut, lift, cut, on and on until I seek anything to end the monotony, a root canal or a postal worker's position. An old man covered in sores and continuously wheezing has been there 40 years. "He's allergic" a worker says. "Why doesn't he quit?" I ask. They stare as if I've lost my mind. "AND LOSE HIS BENEFITS??!"Two strict ten minute breaks and lunch, mandatory state regulation, everybody says it, every day. The day ends at 6:00, the truck is always late. I ring out my overalls, the air blows sweet against our faces.
After working 4 months I save enough to get my guitar out of hock. The job never gets any easier nor do we make any headway with the vines. What we clear at night has grown back by morning. I work alongside an old woman whoI make friends with and before I quit I ask her why we never make a dent in the vines. "They grow too fast", she said, "I tell them to start with the roots but they're too busy to hear." Then she bent her head and cut.
Lift, cut, lift, cut, on and on and on......
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RED MARTY
04:35
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I had a friend Red Marty and he smoked a little crack, and he stole his mother's TV and his friends all thought him wack, but I wasn't married to him, or related or depending, though I used to hang out with him but you know I can't defend him. We'd go drinking on a Monday we'd go drinking by the wall, we'd go drinking on a Tuesday we'd go drinking at the mall, we'd keep drinking, drinking, drinking and when Wednesday come around we'd be stinking stinking stinking and by Thursday we'd fall down, we'd be up on the weekend, Friday happy hour, down on a Saturday, our breath would make you cower, we'd keep drinking on a Sunday until we found the floor and I miss that mad Red Marty and I don't drink anymore...
Over, over, over he'd say...his prayers...his way.
He'd get up on his soapbox and Red Marty would start saying, "How come we hire teachers, and we don't want to pay 'em? And they got some beat up Oldsmobile now what kids gonna listen? But a corrupt fuck that makes the big bucks sits in a car that glistens?" I'd say "Marty, Marty, Marty, man, no one wants to hear this!" but he'd get all the redder and he'd bang the bar with his fist, "And the TV shows a nose job of the rich and lazy and we clamor for the details, and we rush that shit like crazy, but kids would dig the teacher if she's sportin' her a Benz, and then there's education, and then the hatred ends!" By the time that he got finished that whole damn bar was sore, and I miss that mad Red Marty and I don't drink anymore.
It was getting to the point when Marty'd come around, everyone would be hidin' everyone would duck down. He'd go on and on about parents, you get 'em into meetings, and you license 'em and train 'em it would cut down on the beatings, he's go on and on 'bout drinking how it is a disease and we keep on jailing sickness and we'd see in centuries and when you hoped he'd shut up he'd say something dumber and things was getting mighty weird and I left that town that summer. And I thought I might meet smarter men, at least somewhat more sane, and I got a call last Friday Marty blew out his own brains. I keep searchin' for these men and I meet men galore and I miss that mad Red Marty and i don't drink anymore!
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CONFESS ME
04:08
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I could talk all night, with no great insight, I search the skies 'til dawn. I try to believe, I try to believe, until the stars are gone. Confess me, and I'll confess you.
I got the rope burn, I got the live learn, I've got the shouldered chip, I've got the 'so what?' I got the rock gut, I've got delivered lip...
I got the black cloud, I got the torn shroud, I got the funny looks,
I got the naive, I got the heart sleeve, I got too many cooks....
Confess me and I'll confess you...
Bless me father for I have sinned, I have a tell tale conscience that stinks again...
The sacraments, boy, the sacraments....
I cracked the mirror, I try and steer clear, this song won't let me sleep,
I hock my handshake, trade for an earthquake and I pray my soul to keep.
Confess me and I'll confess you.....
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NEW WORLD
03:48
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Big gun met little gun in the same town, this is what the big gun found when he was down there on the ground...sicker, quicker...sicker and quicker and welcome to the new world....
Burt met Gert, she was asking for work, Burt was curt than lost when Gert became his boss...slicker quicker welcome to the new world, slicker and quicker and welcome to the new world....
Preacher met Teacher up there on the box knocks the flocks and they burn him at the stake when they wake for goodness sake...thicker, quicker, welcome to the new world...thicker and quicker and welcome to the new world....
Here's a clue to the stew that we eventually pursue to the new to the old days to the new ways filled with wonder and blunder and tumultuous thunder, flicker and quicker and welcome to the new world....
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DECISIONS
03:40
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Decisions decisions, going through my brain, fightin' right and left, drivin' me insane, eternal conflict, going through my mind, a constant dialogue going through my mind...ying and yang, bolder, colder, a debate team on my shoulder...decisions, dust never clears, always got a rivalry there between my ears...
Well you see her, you like her, she's carrying cool books, whats on her headphones? You sure like the way she looks...She'd never talk to you you ain't got no job... It's a good thing she can't read your mind she would see you're just a slob...
What do you say you get some nuts? staring at the mirror looking for your nuts? Why has everybody gotta carry your ass? Go on and talk, you're just as good, chances are she wishes you would, stand up or shut up, life your head,nothins gonna change then you're dead....
Decisions, decisions,going through your brain, fightin' right and left and it's driving me insane,eternal conflict, going all the time, a constant dialogue going through my mind.
Selling sand in the desert? Everything's in hock, you can't make ends meet and you're sinking like a rock, the move is risky, it's lonely and it's a curse,things will get better if you stay right here,if you move it could be worse!
Move you shlub, there's nothing here, you've no real friends you'll drown in beer, it's a one horse town, the horse id dead, when you gonna get that through your head? Take a chance an adventure's cool, why you attend, "Could have been..." alibi school.Think you can and you will, you've nothing to lose, it's simple as hell...
Decisions, decisions, going through my brain, fightin' right and left driving me insane, Eternal conflict going all the time, a constant dialogue and it's going through my mind..ying and yang, bolder, colder, a debate team on my shoulder, decisions, dust never clears, always got a rivalry there between my ears.
Well he's your brother, he gets high every night, he lost his job and his wife and he stole from you alright...You told him if it happens again you're going to have to report the crime, but your wallets gone and you should talk and be compassionate one more time.
Turn him in hes too far gone, you've done him a favor it's on and on, he stole your car betrayed your name, do him a favor its a dying game, he'd rip your heart he'd sell your soul, he sold his own there's no control, you've cried and begged argued and lost, don't be a sap you've paid the cost.
Decisions, decisions, going through my brain, fightin' right and left driving me insane, Eternal conflict going all the time, a constant dialogue and it's going through my mind..ying and yang, bolder, colder, a debate team on my shoulder, decisions, dust never clears, always got a rivalry there between my ears.
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JOHN LENNON
04:10
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True story: In eighth grade I was short, had glasses and a squeaky ass voice that refused to change. Two things dominated my thoughts: James Cartino and John Lennon. Cartino I came in contact with daily, in gym class where he beat the shit out of me at every opportunity...Lennon I came in contact with in my wildest dreams.
In 1971 John Lennon spent a week in my hometown of Syracuse NY. Yoko gave an exhibition at a museum there. Some friends of mine skipped school and got hired to do odd jobs for her. I'd tell them of my day of Cartino poundings and they'd tell me about their day with John and Yoko, I was envious as hell.
My friends told me there was to be a private party and I begged them to let me in. They were skeptical but agreed. I outside the museum for about eight hours, I had to piss real bad but I didn't dare leave. At about midnight the back door opened and I snuck in, I couldn't believe my luck, I'd be invisible, I'd watch, I'd wait.
The room was dark and crowded. I saw Allen Ginsberg and some others I recognized but no John and Yoko. After an hour I felt I could make a much needed trip to the men's room. I made my way through the crowd, entered a hallway, took a few steps and saw Lennon approaching. A group from the party had targeted him and from behind me they rushed. I was carried as if in slow motion, straight as a bullet, closer, closer until my chest slammed into Lennon's. John Lennon looked down at me and barked, "Fuck off!". It sucked to be me, I hit the restroom.
The hometown buzz from Lennon's visit lasted a month for me, of course it lasted longer. Cartino thrashed me the following Monday but it didn't seem to hurt as much...something had changed for all my life.
I didn't cry when Lennon was murdered, I was angry and bewildered, I respected him so much I may even have felt guilty. Last year, while getting my baggage at LaGuardia Airport I found myself next to his son Sean. Tall, handsome like his father, with his mother's beautiful eyes, the son Lennon never got to see become a man. And now that I'm a father I understand this more than ever, it was then I noticed I was crying.
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MARK DON'T GO
03:36
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Give him the stall, make him keep talking, is he still there? Come to the phone! Mark don't go...
I hear you voice, how come you're hearing...talked to your wife, she hid your keys, please, Mark don't go....
Get, get, getting low
It's been a long night, why don't we hold tight, give me a minute and I'll be there....Lets let the morning judge, I think you shouldn't budge, Give me a minute and I'll be there...
I know whats out there in the glove box, turn down Roseanne what did you say? Hey...
Mark don't go....
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IN A BAR
04:22
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Hows it going how you doing ain't seen you in a year or two, heard about your sister, I missed her, where'd she go? would have liked to have said goodbye, man she made about nine guys cry, I had a crush it wasn't much but you know...So how is Florida treating ya, I hear the tracks still beatin' ya, it's just a joke, not tryin' to poke, it's just fun, why don't you sit and have a drink, I'm curious about what you think, this was your hang out but the gangs out no more. In a bar, in a bar, with a neon light for who you are, it's coming down like a shining star, in a bar....
You hear about Freddie Dell, man that guys all gone to hell, he had to flirt the needles dirt no mystery, same goes for Tony Pure, happens fast that's for sure, just a year ago they were and no, they're history...Hey Angie settled down, you never see her comin' round, she married fast, it won't last, he ain't true, she had a baby boy, man that kids her pride and joy, but here's the zinger the kids a dead ringer for you.In a bar, in a bar, with a neon light for who you are, it's comin' down like a shinin' star in a bar...
Hear from your brother much? I guess you guys don't keep in touch, you hang around, he'll be down most every night, don't think I'm out of line but man he gets drunker all the time, it's the same game, it's your name and then he's going to fight.You know how people talk, they all seen him walk, he gets all bombed up, him and Tommy make the mile, it ain't for me to say but Tommy he's that way and this place ain't so great for tolerating' them lifestyles...In a bar, in a bar, with a neon light for who you are, it's coming down like a shining star, in a bar....
What do you mean you gotta run, you're going to miss the fun, with all the wheelins and the dealins by two. It's like you just got here, wadda ya say another beer, you gotta go, well I know, well that's cool. I'll walk you to your car, when they hear you was at the bar, Angie and your brother are gonna smother me with flack, one thing I gotta know, you know before you go, is Florida cool or do you think you'll move back? In a bar, in a bar, with a neon light for who you are, it's coming down like a shining star in a bar
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THE MEETING
03:46
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People ask me, what's going down? What kind of stuff when I come round, it's just one guy and one guitar so it's gotta be folk, oh man how wrong they are.
Gonna be a meeting, gonna be a meeting, gonna be a meeting, you me the songs the guitar and the rock and roll.
If it's Kumbaya, the World Trade Center's a shack if it's Puff the Magic Dragon Picasso was a hack, this bullshit Unplugged is like a monkey on my back, unless you're talking Chuck Berry then you ain't talking jack, I'm rockin' like the Clash it's acoustic kind of meanery, I'm as bad as Nine Inch Nails but I don't need machinery, a little bit of wood and a little bit of wire call up Smokey the Bear because there's gonna be a fire and if I ain't sweatin' then it ain't no fun, I'm like the Beastie Boys except I'm only one....gonna be a meeting, you me and the rock and roll...
I listen with the headphones to study the artist, I started hearing voices, not like Judas Priest, mostly from the old guys like a whisper in the back, like Muddy Waters saying, 'It's all in the attack..." Gonna be meeting, you, me the songs the guitar and the rock and roll....
I beat it in the basement, I beat it in the yard, I beat it like a band because I beat it so hard, I beat it like a flag, I beat it real proud, I got a call from Saturn says 'It's too damn loud!'...well, I won't change the world, well heck I know all that, I might stall a politician by pissing in his hat, it's a land of many paths, there ain't only one right way, and I will keep on rocking that until my dying day...gonna be a meeting, you, me, the songs, the guitar and the rock and roll.
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HAMELL ON TRIAL Austin, Texas
Hamell on Trial is loud, fast music informed by politics, intelligence and a wicked sense of humor.
1995-Mercury
Records-Big as Life, The Chord is Mightier Than the Sword.
1997- Choochtown
2003-Righteous Babe Records-Tough Love
2005, Songs For Parents Who Enjoy Drugs.
2007-“The Terrorism Of Everyday Life,” (Edinburgh Fringe Herald Award)
2012-New West Records -The Happiest Man Alive.
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